Wanna read my journal from a year ago ! (This is extremely weird)

OK, I am doing it cause I just felt right. Should I ?

Why am I posting it… Well, I am just confused and after reading this I felt like maybe I should upload it.

So this is what I wrote:

On the journey of happiness: From now on everyday, Yes, everyday I am gonna try my best to happy, grateful and work towards my dreams. My friend I figured out that now I should change my life. I want to be happy because if I want to achieve fulfillment I have to work. (OK, good start not gonna lie)

There is no shortcut to success, No lift which I can just take and it will land me where I want to be. I don’t see success as a destination anymore. I know this is a very cliché but I think that there is indeed an element of truth in it. (Yaa, That’s quiet a lot of focus for a 17 yr old boy)

What does success even mean if you are sad at the end of it, and i guess I will find happiness on the way as well. There are things I want to do before I die and that is all that I am chasing now. I am chasing fulfillment yes that’s what I actually and truly want now. I know nothing happens in a day and its true, whenever I look back at my life from 2019 or 20 It feels like yes I have come forward from where I was back then. I know I am much happier now. I know it sounds strange and it probably is as well. (Me onto a deep chain of thoughts usually common in my note)

You know there is a lot that I could have done till this point but I still can’t look back at my life and write things the way I usually do.(Where did this come from I got no clue)

Being a human in itself is such a beautiful and underrated thing that it often goes under the covers. I am a work in progress and honestly I always want to be that way. I want to look back and feel happy for all that I have and everything that I got even grateful for the things that I have and the things I don’t. (Look, lets just put it like ya, I kinda still feel the same about this, Its weird but its true)

I know that there is a universe and a god who’s gonna take care of me in the brightest of the days and darkest of the nights. This is it. (Surprisingly spiritual turn for sure)

Dreaming in general is going to be continued but I have to find a direction to make those dreams into a reality. Not trying to be lost anymore although it supremely is true that you find the best of directions only when you are lost.So…Ya it is what it is, Whatever happens in whichever form I’ll be happy.(So, this is a place where I feel most of my changes happened yes I am still lost but in a different way now)

“Its always going to be a beautiful journey if you are brave enough to walk through at it.”

(I like this quote is my own but it gives that strange sense of hope wherein you know that things may or may not turn out the way you want but it will still be fine)

This is the Current me again:

So, How was it ? I honestly feel that within me there are a no. of changes like the thing about not having a direction is still sort of true but its of a different kind. Its uncertainty about the decisions I took which scare me now. I like how much of evolution has happened in that one year but its an interesting journey to look back at what you were before.

I know that writing and putting it out there barely makes any sense as nobody really reads them anyway so, if you are reading this. Thanks a lot and I would really appreciate writing something about it as a response. ❤